meitachi: (stock - streets)
2017-09-03 08:29 pm

houston, in the aftermath

Here, in the Houston metro area, but 30 miles to the north, we survived Hurricane Harvey and are very lucky and very grateful to come through with no damage. I was out of town when the storm hit on a mini law school reunion with friends in Denver. Husband rode it out with our cat and was fortunate enough to never lose power or water. My flight home was canceled so I flew from Denver to DC to crash with friends and finally got home yesterday to find all was well, including my car which had been parked at an off-airport lot.

It was surreal to keep up with the news and see such familiar parts of Houston under water and so badly affected. There's a long road to recovery, but at least we're slowly on the way to normal now after the rain. It sometimes feels like a double life to both be worried and also to resume my normal routine, so fortunately mostly untouched by this tragedy.

Here are some great local Houston organizations to donate to, in addition to the national organizations being named.
meitachi: (me - citybridge)
2017-07-12 04:02 pm

scattered

Cutting our cable was one of the best things we've done, saving us over $100 on our monthly bill, although I missed having the sports packages during the NCAA tournament and Stanley Cup Playoffs. But once the regular season starts up again, I have streaming via the NHL app for my Canes games since they're never on national TV/blacked out, and that should be sufficient. I really don't follow hockey as closely as I did when I was in the RPF fandom, and it's better that way.

The main thing I miss is our DVR and ability to record shows, primarily Jeopardy! It airs at 3PM here, which is bizarrely early, and Wheel of Fortune airs at 6:30PM. It's the only place I've lived that actually aired those two programs separately rather than back-to-back. I miss Jeopardy! I grew up watching it with my family and enjoy that it sort of makes knowing general trivia cool.

This was a nice article about it, but I most resonate with the top comment. It's also one of the few cultural touchstones I have with "real" America, or main street America, or whatever other euphemism we're using for the demographic we describe as the opposite of the coastal elite.

Lately, the days are routine but my attention is scattered, and I don't know what life is supposed to look or feel like. Am I doing this right? Well, we proceed regardless, and if I can gather the courage and the discipline to change things, perhaps I will. Change still happens.
meitachi: (kibum - study hard)
2017-06-29 10:25 pm

always reading

Celebrating the 20th anniversary of Harry Potter this week by reading this long AU fic, Hermione Granger's Hogwarts Crammer for Delinquents on the Run. So far it's got good character dynamics and H/D UST, but seems to lack plot direction. I've also seen, in fandom at large, more instances of "rein" misspelled as "reign" and "poring" as "pouring" that these days the correct spelling might actually throw me off more. It's still an instinctive flinch though.

After I finish this, still so many books to read! I am perpetually distracted by the internet and Star Trek, however. Also Vassalord! The manga about vampires who are also vampire hunters, and one is part-cyborg, and there is a pseudo incestuous relationship where the blood-drinking is an allegory for fucking? And possibly plot, but god knows what that plot is.

Always reading -- or wasting time on the internet. Better to be reading!
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2017-06-04 05:17 pm

wonder woman

I HAVE SO MANY FEELINGS. I love Diana Prince; and Diana, Princess of the Amazons; and Wonder Woman, and I did not expect to have so many feelings about Steve Trevor and Diana, good god.



The world has been a drag lately so I only want to dwell in the positives that make me happy and this is it. Let me flail around here for a bit.

Also, that book post is going to go up soon, now that it's finally June!
meitachi: (me - walk away)
2017-05-21 03:23 pm
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this list never shrinks

My "to read" list is always ever-growing! I've put on a lot of Asian-American authors writing things other than That Infernal Immigrant Story, which I'm always excited about, but they don't always end up my favorite reads -- I guess I still tend toward comfort genre stuff, like a tropey regency romance, or cozy mystery, or fantasy quests. (The Astreiant series is fun for me, a combination of mystery/crime-solving and fantasy world. Julian Kestrel mysteries was another good blend of regency historical plus mystery murder.)

I finished the original m/m royal arranged marriage in spaaace story, The Course of Honor by avoliot, recently after patiently waiting a couple months for the full thing to be posted. It is utterly delightful and worth it. The world and the characters are charming and offer a fun blend of real emotional tension (emotional h/c!), political intrigue, and tropes (sharing a bed for warmth!). I could live for another story or two in this world, but I'd like to see if the author does anything else either.

Soon, it will be June, and I will make a lengthy book post. This is what I look forward to in fandom now, more so than really participating in fandom at all. (Still reading fic and reblogging art/pretty pictures, but that seems to be an okay balance for me along with work, politics, real life, and so on.)
meitachi: (text - welcome to the internet)
2017-05-01 04:16 pm

merry month of may

It's only been two months since my last books post? It feels like longer though I'm not sure if that's because I read more or not. I guess I'll keep track through May and then do the usual three-month round-up.

The problem with trying to use DW to journal is that it crossposts with my public fandom journal, the one where I have far less to say these days, and not my personal journal. I have no idea what I want to do with that one, though these days I'm getting the highlights down on a physical journal every day so there are more infrequent updates over there as well. Sometimes it's nice to have a longer post to muse aloud. And sometimes I try to avoid all that musing, so maybe therein lies the problem.

Had a quick Vegas trip this past weekend with my friends to see the Backstreet Boys in concert, and they were old and so were we, but we all had fun and it was super worth it. We also managed to escape tourist trap city (i.e., The Strip) briefly to go eat in the glorious suburban wilds, where we got amazing taiyaki (fish ice cream!! I love calling it that because it's both true and sounds terrible) and then handmade Asian noodles. Damn, foodie paradise at all price points.

So the Vegas feels lingered after getting home, so along with some Elvis ("Viva Las Vegas" and "A Little Less Conversation"), I rewatched Ocean's Eleven and rediscovered my love for slick-talking well-suited dudes pulling off cons and heists. And that Danny/Rusty dynamic is still understated great. Shame the fandom never got big enough to get fanvids, or so it seems. Or maybe the movie was just one long one...

Well, more on everything later; now to cook and to drink! And to figure out all the things going on this week/month.
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2017-04-09 04:02 pm

on stories and where we spend our energy

Latest Yo, Is This Racist? podcast featured the guest, comedian David Gborie, who was talking about his complicated relationship with rap: how he wasn't really there, personally, for the artsy struggle stuff, the rap by Kendrick or A Tribe Named Quest or the kind of rap that basically becomes accessible for white people. That stuff is still incredible and he's glad it's being made, but for him, it was kind of retreading stories he already knew and didn't really want to spend more time on in his music. He wanted rap that makes him feel good: stuff that's written off as not high-brow or arty enough, I suppose. The stuff about making millions and getting all the girls and being a badass, etc. It sounds silly when phrased from an prissy middle class Asian-American woman who isn't into rap, so I'm sorry for that, but hopefully you get my gist. (Jay-Z was his example.)

But it made me realize that's pretty much how I feel about Asian-American immigrant stories. Joy fucking Tan and her endless mother issues and all the angst about languages and being a child torn between two worlds, and the struggle our parents went through, and our struggle now. Look, god, these are important stories to be told, for sure. I'm glad they're being told. I'm glad they have the impact for whoever reads them, whether it's other Asian-Americans who identify with it or non-Asians who get a glimpse into what it's like and gain a little more empathy. But, man, that shit is not for me. I'm tired of these stories. This is not where I want to spend my time or energy. Give me Asian-American stories about space operas or superheroes or boarding school murder mysteries, or debonair spies (mentally casting John Cho), or high fantasy that utilizes Chinese mythology but follows the hero's journey tropes and archetypes. I'm into that. I want stuff that makes me feel good and is fun. And that's as legit as the other stuff, but there's a pervasive sense that anything fun isn't high-brow or true art, and anything true to type of its genre is just not breaking enough ground to be noteworthy.

Fuck it, let me have my escapism. Real world's tough enough and if we have a limited time here, shouldn't we try to fill life with things we enjoy?
meitachi: (text - welcome to the internet)
2012-01-08 08:52 pm

Come On, Rock My World - ShiHanChul, PG-13

Come On, Rock My World
Super Junior, Siwon/Hankyung/Heechul, PG-13, 3700 words
AU. Heechul is the artistic director and lead singer for Modern SC, your friendly neighborhood high school rock band. Siwon, Hankyung, and Sungmin are the hapless tagalongs who make up the rest of the band.

A/N: Written as a pinch-hit for [livejournal.com profile] daidetre for [personal profile] sujuexchange and originally posted here. I loved the prompts I had to work with; this was super fun to write.

MODERN SC Live! Saturday @ NOISY BASEMENT #2 @ 9PM )
meitachi: (sjm - love)
2012-01-07 02:43 pm

All The Lines We Cast - GengMi, R

All the Lines We Cast
Super Junior (M), Han Geng/Zhou Mi, R, 19,200 words
Han Geng’s interest in Super Junior M didn’t end when he left and it’s Zhou Mi now, with mixed feelings, who bears the brunt of that interest. They’re no longer bandmates and they were never friends, but they still find themselves tangled together two and some years on.

A/N: Written for [livejournal.com profile] lixia84 for [personal profile] sujuexchange and originally posted here. Included within is a very liberal version of reality. Most non-essential characters having been gifted with names from my imagination (save other celebrities). The gritty details of how the industry and concerts work are also invented as to be vaguely plausible and not as a blueprint of reality, as I am not personally familiar with said details, so forgive any inaccuracies. Many, many thanks to my amazingly helpful betas [livejournal.com profile] papered and [livejournal.com profile] transitorial; all remaining mistakes are mine alone. See post-fic note for more.

spending a lifetime building invisible bridges )
meitachi: (stock - streets)
2012-01-04 11:40 am

47. this street, too, is a dead end

1. Apparently if you track a post on DW, you won't get email notifications for comments left using OpenID. This perplexes me.

2. I'm not certain how to feel about Delicious now sending email notifications when you get a new subscriber. (I'm sorry, I don't even use Delicious anymore!)

Regarding my Pinboard, though, why am I following people who read nothing but Erik/Charles and Sherlock BBC fic? I have no interest in either. I confuse myself.

3. Speaking of Sherlock BBC, I need to go watch that. I enjoyed last season (if I'll allow myself to conveniently forget the blatant racism of episode 1.02) but I really have no interest in the fandom. I like adaptations (though I may be finicky about them*) but I think ACD's canon will always be closest to my heart.

*I hate the very idea of adaptations like "Pride, Prejudice & Zombies" but that might be more due to (1) my unending love for "Pride & Prejudice" as is (you are, of course, free to disagree) and (2) my irrational hatred of the zombie fad. I am uncool, I know it. Give me my Regency romances and let me dither!
meitachi: (kyuhyun - sunlight)
2011-12-31 10:28 pm

bidding 2011 farewell with a miwon fic rec

Fics are up at [personal profile] sujuexchange! I signed up for it to make myself write and I am happy to report that, indeed, I wrote! Authors are anonymous until January 7, so I'll repost my fics over on my writing comm after that. In the meantime, I hope my recipients enjoy.

So let me take a moment to gush about the fic I received.

I requested Miwon, Mihae, or Michul - and got a deliciously adorable and hysterical Miwon model AU. I CAN'T STOP GRINNING. My mystery anon also catered to the soul of my bias by including Heechul, Donghae, and Kyuhyun. Am I that predictable? (Yes, okay, I am.)

Title: (please don’t) drown me in roses
Characters/Pairings: Siwon/Zhou Mi, Heechul, Kyuhyun, Donghae
Rating: PG13 (language)
Genre(s): romance, humor-ish
Warnings: none

In person, Choi Siwon turns out to be a complete and utter disappointment.

For Mei flailing. )

So, yes, my new year's eve is spent inside, cozy and warm and reading fic/manga/things. A fabulous way to start the new year, I think.

I love you guys! I wish everyone the best 2012 of their lives. :D Happy New Year!
meitachi: (text - welcome to the internet)
2011-12-22 08:59 am

45. memory storage

I wonder if I should import my LJ over here - just to have a back-up I won't lose. Or I could just LJ Archive it, I suppose. For all that complain about LJ, I am so hard-pressed to leave anywhere I spent over seven years of my online life.
meitachi: (me - walk away)
2011-09-17 11:09 pm
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44. 我这生命可不可以不再要了

人生没有受不了的苦, 只有想不了的福。人生没有受不了的苦, 只有想不了的福。人生没有受不了的苦, 只有想不了的福。人生没有受不了的苦, 只有想不了的福。人生没有受不了的苦, 只有想不了的福。人生没有受不了的苦, 只有想不了的福。人生没有受不了的苦, 只有想不了的福。人生没有受不了的苦, 只有想不了的福。人生没有受不了的苦, 只有想不了的福。人生没有受不了的苦, 只有想不了的福。人生没有受不了的苦, 只有想不了的福。人生没有受不了的苦, 只有想不了的福。人生没有受不了的苦, 只有想不了的福。人生没有受不了的苦, 只有想不了的福。人生没有受不了的苦, 只有想不了的福。人生没有受不了的苦, 只有想不了的福。
meitachi: (me - citybridge)
2011-08-11 04:03 pm

43. 慢慢习惯这个普通的生活

怎么觉得好久没用中文了?SJM没有活动时,我就没有兴趣去看中文新闻、读百度吧、等等。8月16日在北京有粉丝会,很期待能再次看到小亨亨和周先生。曹圭贤,你越爱M,我越爱你,谢谢你的关心,今天看到你推特上写的中文使我很高兴。

说实话,对M的日本发展我很少兴趣,懒得理,不过能让原本六位成员又在一起的话,我一定会支持。

M以外的事,没什么要说的。正在找工作,是不容易的事情呀。妈妈应该今晚从国内回美国,需要跟她商量月底去DC的事儿。看起来也要从爸妈借一点钱咯,希望工作找得快。

给我一个小时,就要下楼煮饭了。
meitachi: (Default)
2011-06-30 11:57 pm
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42. 这些流言蜚语

随时随地,你走哪里,我跟着去。

周觅:

找到勇气把这“橘子”终于说出口:无论你走哪里,向什么方面去,我都会依然跟着你、支持你。无论晴天、阴天,即使凌晨三点钟只剩了你一个人,就求你记得我爱的就是你,我会永远爱你,绝不放手。离不开你的我天天只要你快乐。

永远开心能是你的觅糖




[final tally: 10首觅的solo歌]
还缺:普通朋友,can you feel the love tonight,天黑黑,家后,forever love,流沙,爱与诚,潇洒小姐
难得了
meitachi: (me - waiting)
2011-06-10 10:46 am

41. 喝太多咖啡了

当朋友好难啊,怎样才算做好朋友?是不是好费力呀?最后值不值得?难说呀,难说。

周先生和小呆依旧可爱死了,好爽~ 延续贴身腻人的恶心,不断地亲密 ♥(吵架也吵得像夫妇样子 - 小呆闹脾气跟小媳妇似的)(觅呀,非要抱 非要搂 非要不断地接近,难怪我们都一眼觉得你恋爱了)不过,我人最近没有时间追他们的消息,就靠《周觅新闻》,还是很花时间 ㅠ

为何总是说觅贤的事儿?因为说我生活上的事儿会比较无聊吧。 ┐(´∀`)┌
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2011-05-19 11:01 am

该死

not scared of death but terrified of dying. it's the process, not the result, that stalls me.

one day i'll reach a point where i'm more terrified of life than dying.

it's reaching a point where i'm starting to believe there's no point. because i'm shallow and useless and a failure, and everyone else has someone better, and they should.

my biggest fear has always been failure. my entire life has been nothing but, i realize.

death is the easy way out, isn't it? but isn't that all i do anyway?

excuses. selective reality. lies. cheating.

i'm scared.
meitachi: (kyuhyun - sunlight)
2011-03-30 08:46 pm

39. 幸福是不是自造的

呐。哥,知道么?幸福其实和摩天轮是一样的,转啊转啊,一圈又一圈的来来去去,没有停留,但是总是会义无反顾的回来,没有意外,也没有停歇。

我们的未来,还有很长很长。但未来的某一天,若我们仍能执手相依,踏上这幸福的小盒子,那么,我希望,摩天轮能够带领我们回到原点。

那个时候,我们的爱,安然无恙。
meitachi: (me - citybridge)
2011-03-20 01:50 pm
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38. 做人要潇洒一点

做自己会喜欢的自己,比什么都重要,这世上没有一个人,可以让所有人喜欢他,但自己不喜欢自己,才是惨吧。

--周觅
meitachi: (kyuhyun - sunlight)
2011-03-17 04:59 pm

37. 恋爱。

我认为恋爱的感觉就是,你开始感受到,每天早晨醒来,都会又莫名的快乐缠绕在你的心头,心情会随之劲靓,但是自己一时间想不明白为什么这么快乐,快乐得想要拥抱全世界,拥抱每个人,对每个人说我爱你,然后你那傻了吧唧的样儿就会被别人嘲笑说像个疯子,可是你就是不在意。

然后很快你就会想到,原来这一切是因为你恋爱了,你的精神有了一个很可靠很甜蜜的寄托。你知道每天都会有一个人跟你你样儿傻傻得开心,傻傻地想着对方;你知道你不再只是一个人孤零零地看着别人情侣甜蜜拥抱,你不再是只能于想象中或者梦中体会那种幸福。

我想这大概就是初恋让人无法忘却的原因。

从没有到拥有,这个过程是很幸福的。就像咖啡一样,一旦喝了,就会上瘾。就会离不开,就会戒不掉。

至于以后的恋情,即便是再幸福,也找不回当年的那种感受了。


Love. )

是这样的吗?