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The end of the world the year is always the time for reflection, isn't it? And I realize a lot has changed in fandom over the years, but this year in particular has been rather different in terms of my not writing and fandom dispersing (not in a bad way!) over many different platforms.
The format for interactions may change but nothing in life is static, right? The interactions we have with other people and the relationships we forge will always depend on our own willingness, and not solely the backdrop or medium of LJ versus Tumblr versus Twitter. In a lot of ways, we create our own experiences by making certain decisions. In past years, I've chosen to engage and to invest and it comes with both high cost and high payoff: extremes in both awesome people and interactions as well as the emotional turmoil resulting from wank. This year, I chose not to engage so deeply and so occasionally have felt that distance, the lack of excitement of making new friends and flailing together, but I've also avoided the wank, the overinvestment, the hurt and bitter resentment.
( And then an embarrassing amount of stream-of-consciousness philosophizing happened. Oops. Seriously, feel free to skip. )
Aaand now realizing this was maybe more appropriate for my RL journal, but I'm too lazy to move it since I already just typed all of this up in the draft box. I don't indulge in this morbidly macro worldview all the time, and it's hardly what guides how I live my life, but sometimes...thoughts happen? (Bizarre!)
The original point of this post was really just to link people to this holiday love meme so they could post their names and I could leave them embarrassing notes. :D
holiday love meme 2012
my thread here
Happy Hanukkah!
The format for interactions may change but nothing in life is static, right? The interactions we have with other people and the relationships we forge will always depend on our own willingness, and not solely the backdrop or medium of LJ versus Tumblr versus Twitter. In a lot of ways, we create our own experiences by making certain decisions. In past years, I've chosen to engage and to invest and it comes with both high cost and high payoff: extremes in both awesome people and interactions as well as the emotional turmoil resulting from wank. This year, I chose not to engage so deeply and so occasionally have felt that distance, the lack of excitement of making new friends and flailing together, but I've also avoided the wank, the overinvestment, the hurt and bitter resentment.
( And then an embarrassing amount of stream-of-consciousness philosophizing happened. Oops. Seriously, feel free to skip. )
Aaand now realizing this was maybe more appropriate for my RL journal, but I'm too lazy to move it since I already just typed all of this up in the draft box. I don't indulge in this morbidly macro worldview all the time, and it's hardly what guides how I live my life, but sometimes...thoughts happen? (Bizarre!)
The original point of this post was really just to link people to this holiday love meme so they could post their names and I could leave them embarrassing notes. :D
my thread here
Happy Hanukkah!
