so goes my life

[meitachi]

the Ugly
I broke up with my boyfriend today. It was for the best, even if he hates me right now. What an ugly breakup, indeed. Still ugly, actually, as he keeps trying to call me and I absolutely, positively do not want to talk to him right now. To the point where I am turning off my phone; I don't care if this is considered avoidance of the situation. Talking to him at this point will only be unproductive and lead to further hateful exchanges.

I need time and space for me right now, for a good long while. I can't and don't want to be in a relationship when I am re-evaluating myself and my life.

the Bad
I cannot focus at all today on writing fic or being productive in any other form. I wish I could.

I would like to find the lyrics to Donghae's solo Beautiful. I don't suppose anyone has them or knows where I could get them?

the Good
Read this SJ/Dr. Who crossover fic by forochel, written for me and thus Kihae. :3

I got a cute haircut yesterday. Pics of it and Korea to come later.

Super Junior and, generally, its fandom still reminds me that there can be a happy place. ♥

Comments

[mardigrasmaven.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry that your break-up's gone in this direction and he's rather mad at you and whatnot esp. considering that you're at a difficult point in time in your life.

If you need to talk, boo, I'm here and I know other friends are as well cuz we love you and want to see you happy. ♥ *hugs*

And right now, you time is definitely important. Maybe you should take a hot bath or shower and fix you a good comfort snack.

And I don't think the lyrics are out yet. Sorry D:

[meiface.livejournal.com]

Thank you for your sweet words. Anyway, I did take some time for me today, so that's helped. I still really wish I could write though. I guess I got thrown out of my groove. :/

Official lyrics aren't out, I know, but I keep hoping some Korean-speaker will transcribe from the audiorip, haha. /ever-hopeful

[mardigrasmaven.livejournal.com]

Anytime! And that's good! That's what you needed. Maybe you should talk to your mom again since you both seem to have a good relationship with each other; tell her some of your worries. But don't let it make you sick, ok?

Mei: You've thrown off my groove!
Guard: I'm sorry but you have thrown off the meiface's groove...
Poor sap that gets defenestrated: Soooooorryyyyyyy!!

That was a poor attempt at humor, but I hope it made you laugh. The writing bug will come back to you boo, just give it a little time. You love it too much for it to stay away.

I'm hoping for it too! The song, like it's name suggests, is Beautiful! :D

[hoyah.livejournal.com]

♥ I'm sorry about the break up - but I think sometimes space is necessary. Avoidance isn't so bad of a thing, when facing things head on could mean pointless raging.

Good luck with the fic. Can't find DHae's lyrics but if they crop up, I'll try to let you know.

Yay fandom.

[meiface.livejournal.com]

Thanks, Mai. ♥ I know there aren't official lyrics out yet but I'm holding out hope someone could actually make out what he was singing from the fancam...

[ch-ar-me.livejournal.com]

*hugs* here's to hoping things will look up for you soon. i'd second the comment above. happy food, a bit of self-pampering. it'll help, even in its small way. :)

aaaand shamelessly stolen from today's post at kibumaday (because it's appropriate).


fighting! ♥

[meiface.livejournal.com]

alksdjf cannot see imageshack photos in China apparently. ;_; But thank you for the sentiment. ♥ I'll be fine.

[ch-ar-me.livejournal.com]

... oh china, you and your blocks D: (here (http://i30.tinypic.com/11tml1d.jpg) :))
♥♥♥

[meiface.livejournal.com]

Oh pretty Kibum and his long hair *________*

[papered.livejournal.com]

):, I'm sorry. I don't think not picking up is always avoidance though - sometimes you just need time to yourself and all that. I hope you feel better though! (and forgive my insensitively cheerful HOW WAS YOUR DAY~~~ earlier on msn, lol. I uh. clearly had not flisted yet. ;;;)

looking forward to the pics, and sending ♥ you way.

[meiface.livejournal.com]

Awww no bb, don't worry about it. Even when I'm having a bad day, cheer is good. It helps distract. :) ♥ I'll put up pics soonish. Maybe try to write some fic or read something first as a distraction.

[blue-cage.livejournal.com]

*hugs* Having gone through a rather ugly break up before in which I ended up not talking to my ex for at least a year, I can only pray that it'll be much quicker for him to figure out it's for the best.

[meiface.livejournal.com]

Yeah, it's hard to predict where this will go since it just happened this morning but...well, I'm hoping for the less drama the better. :/

Thanks though. ♥

[black-goose.livejournal.com]

hope everything works you ♥ no doubt it's hard now, for both of you, but he'll get over it, hopefully.

akjsd SJ/Dr Who crossover. More people need to write SJ with my favourite shows.

[meiface.livejournal.com]

;__________; relationships suck.

[gymnopediste.livejournal.com]

I hope things will somehow get better soon ♥ I don't think avoidance is always a bad thing. Do what's best for you.

Super Junior and, generally, its fandom still reminds me that there can be a happy place. ♥
i've sort of given up on fandoms, but super junior itself creates an endless amount of happiness for me~

[meiface.livejournal.com]

sob, your icon, he is beautiful.

And yeah, doing the best I can for me and my life.

I've found the SJ fandom I associate with (but I stay in my corner lol) has been lovely. ♥

[gymnopediste.livejournal.com]

there are so many good pics of ss/the presscon ;A; idk what to icon! or if i icon them all, idk which ones to use on my lj D:

hwaiting!

i like sj fans on my flist :D otherwise i only check sites for updates, not discussions or things (good lord, there's so much idiocy everywheeeere)

[meiface.livejournal.com]

I hate omona and refuse to read it. I just make all my friends who do read it give me the news, haha.

[taylormercury.livejournal.com]

I hope things will be less ugly and eventually sort themselves out! Being such a recent thing, it will take some time to settle, but hopefully it will! ♥♥ time and space for yourself is an important thing too though, and you definitely need to do what feels right for you. I hope things will look up for you soon, Mei!

[meiface.livejournal.com]

Thank you, Mica. ♥ I hope things will get better. I hope I figure out, more importantly, me. And what I want. :(

[yourdearpostman.livejournal.com]

(http://s223.photobucket.com/albums/dd218/paperframephotos/?action=view&current=47769342.gif)
HI~ i don't know what to say to make you feel better but:

(http://s223.photobucket.com/albums/dd218/paperframephotos/?action=view&current=DonghaeSorrySorrypelvicthrustgif.gif)
Donghae is always here to give you a sexy dance.

(http://s223.photobucket.com/albums/dd218/paperframephotos/?action=view&current=koreansheroine6.gif)
oh and heechul says hiiiiii~

[meiface.livejournal.com]

This post made me smile, omg, you're so sweet.

...after I stared at the second gif for a few long minutes first, I mean.

[magicmelodyx.livejournal.com]

Ugh, messy breakups. I wish we didn't have to go through them. *hugs* For what it's worth, though, I admire you for making that decision even if it was tough. That kind of honesty's hard to manage sometimes.

Haven't found the lyrics for "Beautiful," but I'll be sure to send them your way if I come across them. (That is, if by some miracle I find them before hoyah.)

[meiface.livejournal.com]

♥ Thanks, it really means a lot. It should be better given time but...well, today was less than fun, generally.

[forochel.livejournal.com]

(hugs)

--everyone has days in the doldrums! for example, yesterday I was supposed to do my granite notes and then I ended up rereading an epic 300+ page long roy/ed fma fic!

yay happytiemz! ♥

[meiface.livejournal.com]

Relationships are crap, we should all just live in a cave.

Ooh Roy/Ed. Which one?

[forochel.livejournal.com]

that just makes me think of Plato.

I think I've recced it to you before! Full Circle (http://www.fanfiction.net/s/2783898/1/Full_Circle), by Nike Femme. but anyway! it's long and good and old-school fanfic style, which some people aren't used to/don't like.

[meiface.livejournal.com]

What do you mean by old-school fanfic style? Other than the fact that it's on FFN?

Ah Plato. I had a love/hate relationship with him.

[forochel.livejournal.com]

I meant the writing style! it's got that kind of emotional exposition that I think newer fanfic shuns, for realism? idk! maybe I have been reading bandom for too long alskdjgljskj and that style only applies to bandom fics.


:O well I don't know anything about the old (dead) codger other than his cave, so!

[kiku-cha8-8.livejournal.com]

I'm really sorry to hear about what happened :(

Space does not mean avoidance. With space, people's hearts will heal and that'll be for the best ;) Just think, tomorrow will be a new day with new adventure and more sources of SJ love ♥

I find that this gif made my cruddy day better, I hope it helps you too ^^
http://community.livejournal.com/sjloveaday/91821.html

[meiface.livejournal.com]

Life goes on; I'll make it through okay. :) Thanks a lot though. ♥

And the gif...orz it's so appropriate for the EunHae fic I'm writing. (Fuck, why am I writing a EunHae fic?) askdjf I may post it up with the fic, when the fic eventually gets posted.

[mondaythe26th.livejournal.com]

This might be a little late but here's kihae for you:




I've never been in a relationship, so I don't know what the right words to say to somehow make you feel better. Also, I suck at comforting people and this is the only thing I can do for you (but now that I've think about it, you might have seen this gifs before. *facepalms*) just to cheer you up a little bit. And like what the others had commented, things would look up for the better eventually. Just be the usual Mei that everybody has the fortune to meet. ;D

[meiface.livejournal.com]

Thank you a lot for this comment. It's really sweet. ♥ ;_; And aww Kihae, I love them. I have seen the gifs, actually, (since there are only so many Kihae gifs in existence) but ty for them anyway.

I'll be fine. Yesterday was just a bad day - I'll work at making my remaining days in China better and more fun. :)