this is not home :(

[meitachi]

The fastest flight I've ever flown from Asia to the US - I guess because I was passed out for most of it.

I'm back in the States and pretty wildly depressed about it. I'm such an emokid, you guys. Staying with a friend in SF (hoyah, emailing you, meeting must happen!) for a few days before flying home on Thursday.

I left my heart in Beijing. Or Seoul. Or just Asia in general.

But I suppose throwing myself into a ditch (or just imagining it) is not actually that useful for living my life, so I'm going to man up and stop whining about things I can't change. Don't dread things: face them head on. What's the worse that could happen? (Don't answer that.) It's all part of life.

We live, we learn...

We bitterly hope SJM releases a new album soon...

Um, not that I'm fixating or anything. ;)

No steady internet here so I will suck at commenting until the end of the week, basically.

Comments

[kyuppuccino.livejournal.com]

Your entry sounds exactly like mine when I came back from Seoul, same words. "I left my heart in Seoul." ..it's just such a beautiful city. It's everything I love, and everything I don't have here. Hopefully you can get over it sooner than I did.

[meiface.livejournal.com]

I love Beijing and I love Seoul. For different, yet similar reasons. I could live in either and be happy. I just...coming back to the States is so hard and I don't know if other people around me really understand. So thanks, I'm glad you get it.

:/ We'll see how long it lasts. I suppose it's best if I don't dwell on it forever and just try instead to work towards going back in the future.

[hoyah.livejournal.com]

lol I feel like everyone who comes back makes a post like this. I'm not sure I did, but I definitely felt like shit when I had to leave Seoul. :( It was so nice to be on vacation, and in such a beautiful, busy place. Even if all we did was hang around the same big centers, it was like we hadn't looked in enough shops or walked down enough streets or gotten lost enough times to make for a brilliant adventure. I cried most of my way back. :( Damn, now I miss Seoul.

[coley-merrin.livejournal.com]

I can ditto the above comments, only saying Japan. :\ Thought I do kind of like to think of it this way... We carry that experience around with us, informing who we are and never leaving us... And our hearts will know to welcome us back. :)

[meiface.livejournal.com]

♥ True.

And I will work towards getting to go back! Maybe for longer this time - maybe for work or something. :)

[mardigrasmaven.livejournal.com]

Ummmm... welcome back? I wouldn't dare say wh... so... yea... I'm sorry you're so depressed. I wish there was something more I could do to make you feel better... T__T

[meiface.livejournal.com]

asdkfj no one take me too seriously - when I start throwing around phrases like "widly depressed", I'm usually exaggerating. I'm pretty :( about leaving Asia, but I'll be okay. Being emo never helps anyway. ♥

[mardigrasmaven.livejournal.com]

Just get excited about the next time you're planning on going! Turn that frown upside down boo!

[papered.livejournal.com]

):, ♥

[kiku-cha8-8.livejournal.com]

I understand how you feel. I went to China about four years ago and I loved living there. I've been wanting to go back ever since....

I hope you get over this soon! Well, the best thing about missing a city is the joy you get when you can go back

[forochel.livejournal.com]

(hugs)

[nittle-grasper.livejournal.com]

Not really related, but just wanted to let you know there is a guy who LOOKS LIKE KIBUM at my JET orientation. I kid you not, same smile and everything.

Okay, that is all XD;

[meiface.livejournal.com]

THAT IS PRETTY AWESOME. :D I approve.

[gymnopediste.livejournal.com]

Expect an entry just like this in 17 days. :(

I hope the SJM album comes before October. Just.. I can't wait longer D:

[meiface.livejournal.com]

alkdjf :( ♥ Time flies! It's amazing how fast this summer has gone.

And yeah, give us that album now, SM! Please?

[meritjubet.livejournal.com]

:( Glad your flight went well, but I'm sorry you feel so sad about leaving Beijing, Seoul. Maybe after you get your degree you can work there again? I remember you talking about specialising in intellectual law, so surely they need lawyers like that everywhere? :)

[masqueradesigns.livejournal.com]

[ mei, this is arrowlights, under my writing journal. (: ]

*HUGS YOU* I ditto the above comments, except since I live in Asia, I say that about the States.

And I second the SJM album release coming soon D:

also, i finished your kihae (: (http://masqueradesigns.livejournal.com/737.html)

[meiface.livejournal.com]

:O If it's not prying, where in Asia do you live?

I want to live in Asia foreeeverrr. Okay, at least a good few years. Idk, I don't want to come off ungrateful for my upbringing or the opportunities living in the US gave me, not at all, but part of me always feels like I'm missing part of my Asian heritage/culture. ;_; Idk, I think I just crave a hiearchy system. /so backwards she's practically a caveman

[arrowlights.livejournal.com]

No, it's not prying, ahaha. I live in Singapore, to be exact, though my grandparents were from Shanghai and Malaysia. (:

LOL. Asia's a nice place once you get past the inherent craziness of the competition. I'd rather live in the States just for the laid-back-ness ( is that a word? D: ) but yeah, living in a country that technically isn't part of your heritage does make one feel like you're missing a part of yourself. At least that's what I feel.