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★mei ([personal profile] meitachi) wrote2010-11-10 05:21 pm

you can tell i love you from the way i look at you

All right, today was a somewhat productive day, so I feel justified in taking time off for LJ.

PRIMERO, the obligatory Tom Hardy fangirling. Y'all have seen pics from his new Dunhill shoot, right? Oh my god, his mouth. OH MY GOD HIS TIE HIS SUIT HIS EVERYTHING, UNF. And of course the new pics from the set of This Means War, where he's in a suit/kissing Reese/wearing cuff links/being a GQBAMF.

And if that's too much classy Tom for you (is there such a thing?), let's wander over towards http://tomhardyparty.com for the big guns x.

SEGUNDO, in a bit of kpop news, [livejournal.com profile] thundersquall and [livejournal.com profile] ch_ar_me alerted me to Heenim hanging out with Kibum. Kibum is alive! Freshly showered! Aw, Kichul friendship. Odds are good I won't see him at the Singapore SS3 but I'm holding my breath for a Zhou Mi/Henry/SJM perf instead, since I didn't get that in Seoul last year. Omg.

Speaking of Singapore, I'll be arriving on Jan 5 and leaving May 9. That means I should have time to meet up with you, [livejournal.com profile] catskilt, right? And any of the rest of y'all hanging out in Singapore, let me knooooow. I need to be shown the good foods and good times. ♥

TERCERO, back to Twitter: I no longer find Tom Felton that attractive (he was an adorable boy, okay, but as [livejournal.com profile] thyme_hawthorne's pointed out, that boy's forehead, what is going on) but oh my god he has the sweetest and funniest tweets.
Tom Felton Top 10 ‘Harry Potter’ Hotties: http://on.mtv.com/a0iCKK always had a huge crush on mtv!! glad the feelings mutual!! @hollywoodcrush

/smushes him. And he reminds me that HP7 PART 1 COMING OUT NEXT WEEK. WHO'S EXCITED?! Be excited!


In fact, rec me your favorite H/D fics in preparation of the big day! Man, I miss the classic plotty H/D stuff. And always, always excited for December and [livejournal.com profile] hd_holidays. HP is my seasonal thing~

I was thinking last night about how I sort of want to write again but I am never going to be able to do it again, woe. I have honestly not felt so apathetic about writing in such a long time, but it's really been a struggle lately. It's probably due to no longer having the excitement and commitment of any one fandom - not kpop, not Inception, and certainly not STXI or Merlin or DCU or AIRPS... I'm a bit of a free-floater right now in what I'm reading or paying attention to, which is apparently hell on my ability to write.

So while pondering reading, I get an email from someone who wants to translate one of my fics into French -- only it's a fic I wrote in 2004. Holy crap! I'm super flattered (this makes, what, six languages? I'll be JKR any day now haha) and go to reread the fic in question, which is a tiny little schmoopy ficlet. And here I realized how much I insert my own biased views of what ~true love~ and romance are into my fics.

It's a little bit personal experience and a little bit wish fulfillment and a little bit media influence, but it all comes down to a few staples:

- an emphasis on smiles, smiling at each other, smiling with their eyes, secretive smiles, helpless smiles, small instinctive curves of the mouth, indulgent smiles, joyful smiles that are broad and brimming with things that can't be put into words-- yes. I have a thing. also laughter, but that is related.
- hands and touch, not necessarily overt or sexual or even as obvious as hand-holding: sometimes it's just a hand on someone's shoulder or a thigh pressed against theirs, a little physical reminder that "hey, I'm here and you're not alone".
- related to that: having been with someone through the rough times, the hard times, having seen them at their lowest and worst, and still there and still caring.
- the little actions are the ones that indicate love: texting someone or remembering things that were mentioned casually before, etc.
- other symbols of how they've become two separate people who have chosen to commingle their lives: haphazard mess of their things mixing, having one person's favorite food in the other person's pantry, and so on.
- kisses! kisses kisses kisses: on the mouth, on the neck, on the palm, on the wrist oh my god the wrist. kisses are sweet and are hot and are on the whole much more interesting to me than full-on penetrative sex. (not that i don't love frottage and handjobs and semi-public-- er, but that's not an indication of ~true love~ and not so much for this post.)
- apparently I think leaving little notes for each other is the CUTEST THING EVER. on post-its, on scraps of paper, on cards, in letters or postcards, on the steam in the mirror, on twitter or online journals or whatever-- adorable.
- love being a scary feeling in your stomach, one that settles into something quiet and sure that doesn't need to be articulated. love meaning that you feel foolish and happy and not so worried what the world might think, but willing to take a risk and being okay with that.
- and I like making them make fun of each other (BEING BANTERY AND MEAN) and having a history and having in-jokes, yess.

Strangely, it wasn't until Inception that I started writing cuddling fic!

...I have completely lost my train of thought! So in addition to reccing me your favorite H/D fics, do you guys have any things you love to see as ~indicators of true love~ in fics (whether your own or someone else's)?

[identity profile] meiface.livejournal.com 2010-11-10 11:32 pm (UTC)(link)
hahaha SO EXCITED, I HAVE MY MIDNIGHT TICKETS ALREADY AND-- and I really want to reread some H/D but I can't commit to what I want to read! And I have no idea how to sort out what of the new stuff's good. Hard life is mine. ;_;

[identity profile] meiface.livejournal.com 2010-11-10 11:35 pm (UTC)(link)
ooooh I should go paint my nails proper colors in preparation. :D

[identity profile] coley-merrin.livejournal.com 2010-11-10 11:36 pm (UTC)(link)
I'm all ears if you find new H/D stuff (...or...old H/D stuff. Wait, did you have a list of links?) *eyes fandom and the unfathomable kill-off-people habit* I think most of the stuff I got to coo over in the last year for STXI and HP were from you. XD

[identity profile] meiface.livejournal.com 2010-11-10 11:40 pm (UTC)(link)
ahhhh my list of links that I was perusing was this list of H/D classics (http://gossymer.livejournal.com/101912.html) but I'm not really feeling any of them at the moment, possibly because they were written so long ago that general fandom perception of the characters have changed? Thinking about looking into new H/D stuff but not sure where to start.

As for STXI, hm, there is this newish K/S (http://dreamlittleyo.livejournal.com/135036.html)! Sequel to this (http://dreamlittleyo.livejournal.com/99270.html), which is short-ish.

ETA: Or maybe by the first link I meant this one: http://sulky-rhino.livejournal.com/101987.html
Edited 2010-11-10 23:44 (UTC)

[identity profile] meiface.livejournal.com 2010-11-10 11:42 pm (UTC)(link)
I adore adore banter, but I don't know if that's so much a signal of ~true love~ to me? I think it's because I see friends bantering too. But whatever, I love it. And distance and trust = yes, very much!

I'm going to Singapore on exchange for my last semester! So technically I'll have class, but mostly I am just there to go *______* at everything, haha. Concerts and food and shopping and just hanging out and maybe even traveling into nearby countries! Idk, in the midst of logistical planning right now, rawr.

[identity profile] meiface.livejournal.com 2010-11-11 12:38 am (UTC)(link)
haha true - while mushiness may be okay between two people irl (see The Princess Bride and Buttercup and Westley's reunion scene), it can get boring and annoying to read about. Not nearly as entertaining as banter!

Oh yes, money, everything in the world requires money. :( I HOPE YOU GET TO MAKE YOUR TRAVEL PLANS COME TRUE THOUGH!

[identity profile] nyw.livejournal.com 2010-11-11 12:40 am (UTC)(link)
asjdkalsdj I am here excitedly waiting for your arrival \o/ okay that sounded pretty creepy stalker didn't it >.>

Also how do you intend to get tickets for SS3?

[identity profile] meiface.livejournal.com 2010-11-11 12:44 am (UTC)(link)
I am excited that you will be there while I am there, unlike everyone else who is running away!

[livejournal.com profile] thundersquall (who is in SG) is going to buy our tickets. :) I sent her the money via Paypal so basically I am all set to just show up and go party haha.

[identity profile] jibrailis.livejournal.com 2010-11-11 12:56 am (UTC)(link)
I HAVE MY HP TICKET! I am excited now, ahaha.

I love your list of indicators. I don't know if I have anything I can call an indicator off the top of my head, but your list is very sweet and I might just adopt it for my own.

Making fun of each other, for sure. It's not love until you can laugh at each other.

[identity profile] meiface.livejournal.com 2010-11-11 12:58 am (UTC)(link)
YAY. Thinking of painting my nails silver and green for the movie - will have to go acquire these colors though haha. I do have red and gold already but that is not where my heart is. D:

DOES THIS MEAN I CAN MOCK YOU NOW N? Have we reached this point in our friendship?

[identity profile] jibrailis.livejournal.com 2010-11-11 01:15 am (UTC)(link)
YOUR FACE.

IT IS VERY...FACE-LIKE.

TAKE THAT.

[identity profile] meiface.livejournal.com 2010-11-11 01:18 am (UTC)(link)
W-wait, you're not going to watch it until December?! I guess I am just too hooked on the midnight viewings/whatevers that makes up this fandom experience for me haha.

Yesss man I am such a huge sucker for smiles. I think everyone is automatically beautiful if they are truly smiling, and so attractive people smiling means they've tripled or quadrupled in nice-to-look-at with a genuine smile. :D So smiling at each other obviously equals true love!

[identity profile] meiface.livejournal.com 2010-11-11 01:21 am (UTC)(link)
OH NO YOU DIDN'T--

Image

(...in my trawls for this image, I ran across this (http://www.soundoffcolumn.com/images/cute-babies-4.jpg). SO CUUUTE.)

[identity profile] jibrailis.livejournal.com 2010-11-11 01:37 am (UTC)(link)
Providing that baby image was a clever way to soothe my horror after BURNING MY EYES WITH SCARY CAT. *____*

look at the baby's hair, omg. It is everywhere!

[identity profile] meiface.livejournal.com 2010-11-11 01:41 am (UTC)(link)
I didn't at the beginning of this whole experience; now I am making up for that, I guess, before the whole thing ends. It's been so long, man... Some people truly grew up with this (I missed the entire childhood-defining bit by a few years, but definitely a staple of my later teenage years!).

[identity profile] meiface.livejournal.com 2010-11-11 01:42 am (UTC)(link)
N, my left arm hurts. :( Please remove the needle from that voodoo doll you have of me.

[identity profile] jibrailis.livejournal.com 2010-11-11 01:54 am (UTC)(link)
Should I also take my Mei doll off the little shrine I've built for it?

[identity profile] meiface.livejournal.com 2010-11-11 02:02 am (UTC)(link)
Unless you want it to come to life in the middle of the night and stare at you while you sleep...

[identity profile] meiface.livejournal.com 2010-11-11 02:03 am (UTC)(link)
Aww I enjoyed the first book - it was very much one of those fun wish-fulfillment books and not nearly as OMG DRAMA AND ANGST as the later books were. Which is a matter of taste, I guess, but most people I know found HP5 pretty over the top.

[identity profile] meiface.livejournal.com 2010-11-11 02:27 am (UTC)(link)
It will probably be less crowded if you don't go for the midnight showing - but still exciting! Sleep is important and, well, teaching, I guess... ;)

Omg I was Googling for HP7 pics and ahhhhhh Daniel Radcliffe is so tiny and short! But apparently he is super charming and smiley and talks a mile a minute. It's kind of adorable. :D

[identity profile] catskilt.livejournal.com 2010-11-11 02:35 am (UTC)(link)
.........BB I'M LEAVING ON JAN 5.

[identity profile] meiface.livejournal.com 2010-11-11 02:40 am (UTC)(link)
WHAAAAAAAT OUTRAGEOUS :(

Why did I think you weren't leaving 'til the 6th or 7th? Argh. I guess this makes sense since our semesters both start on the 10th...

[identity profile] meiface.livejournal.com 2010-11-11 02:41 am (UTC)(link)
Well, you could go and just be sleep-deprived, I guess? If your class is 9AM on Thurs, you could take a nap in the afternoon before you go?

[identity profile] catskilt.livejournal.com 2010-11-11 02:42 am (UTC)(link)
It has really become a case of me leaving and you arriving on the exact same day DDDDD:

[identity profile] meiface.livejournal.com 2010-11-11 02:44 am (UTC)(link)
and since you are staying longer in the States after-- huh, maybe we can meet up in the States haha. I don't even know, at this point!

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