apparently some feelings never die

[meitachi]

I've realized that my OTPs of late, for a given value of late, have fallen into a pattern of awkward/rude/snarky (and incidentally dark-haired) guy who is terrible at feelings but hyper-talented at some particular skill, and his sunshine and rainbows/good with people/charming/delightful counterpart of a best friend who loves him too much and tries to take care of him more than is good for either of them. See: Mark and Eduardo, Haru and Makoto, Kyuhyun and Zhou Mi.

Obviously there are variations and differences in each relationship, but there's something about the dynamic that just hooks me and reels me right in. It makes for delicious angst! Pining! UST! And a tendency for me to treat the latter like a fandom bicycle because they deserve to be loved and appreciated, damn it! Less so Eduardo because he is less the endlessly giving martyr, and I like a dysfunctionally narrow and codependent Mark/Eduardo relationship sometimes, one that reflects how impossible it is to live without each other (though obviously RL proves different, but TSN is a whole other ball game). But, damn, Makoto and Zhou Mi deserve everyone to be in love with them and sing their praises and have all the happiness in the world.

That said, my MakoHaru feelings are probably not even a tenth of my Qmi feelings because (1) fictional, (2) so new, comparatively speaking, and (3) far less reciprocity in action than the gloriousness that is Qmi.

Watching S2 of Free! and SJM variety shows during the promotions for Swing, I've been swimming in endless feelings and practically bursting with all sorts of fic desires and ideas, but writing is always easier in my head than in practice. I've started two different fics and have no idea if either will go anywhere. I did also get waylaid browsing back through chineseink and, in particular, my Suju fic directory. Goddamn, there were literally fics I didn't remember writing, or what happened in some of these. There was so much...

Unrelated, SJ's 7jib song, MAMACITA is catchy and fun (and the MV is ridiculous), but I'm a little sad in that it means an end to SJM Swing promos. Ack, never leave me, SJM. Never do. I'll just go rewatch your old shows (and pray also for a new Big Bang album).

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[theafterimages.livejournal.com]

Even after a year and a half I'm still too new to Kpop to have properly gotten into Super Junior lol (there's just so much, it's so daunting! Easier to get into the newer groups), but I have seen enough of Zhou Mi to more than fully agree that everyone should love him bc he's just so wonderful. ♥ I will need to go back and check out your fics! (And lol I read that description of your ideal OTP and immediately thought of N/Leo from VIXX bc wow that bill, they fit it.)

[meiface.livejournal.com]

Suju is so old, and there are so many of them! So much history there; I can definitely see how it's daunting and easier therefore to stick to shiny new groups. Mamacita is a catchy song though! And SJM = gold in my totally unapologetically biased opinion. Qmi until I diee.

I used to have more variety to my ships! Apparently now that I'm old and tired, I only want variations of a theme.

[theafterimages.livejournal.com]

I got into Kpop through EXO lol so large groups I can handle (and I do know like half of Suju already) but yeah, all the history is daunting. I sometimes feel like I ought to circle around to them at some point, though, because I really like (what I know of) some of the members and because they're just such a big name, but where to begin?? Mamacita was pretty catchy, though I'll admit I far & away preferred Swing.

Shipping is such an odd thing! I don't know if I have any set patterns or not, but they do always really have to click with me. Sometimes ships will kind of grow on me over time, but most of the time I can somehow just tell right off the bat if I'll ship a pairing or not.

[meiface.livejournal.com]

Swing. *___* My unending love and bias for SJM and all their Taiwanese variety shows have helped cement the song in my heart. Plus, the hilarious towel dance! (Plus the unending amounts of Qmi. /glee)

[meritjubet.livejournal.com]

It is a nice dynamic. It was the angst and pining that really drew me into M/E. Sometimes you just want to read 50k of pining and UST and misunderstandings and nasty emails (I'm looking at you Mark). I kind of did love it, how when the TSN fandom was developing they just kind of shrugged and said, eh the movie is what we're fannish over.

[meiface.livejournal.com]

hahaha it's true, there were so many fics with emails embedded in them, nasty or otherwise. (Being Mark, more likely nasty than not. Although I reread a fic yesterday with Eduardo sending nasty emails brimming with anger and hurt and it was glorious. Angst and pining! Fix-it fics!)

Hey, if the movie gets to essentially be RPF...then is fic of RPF still RPF? But yeah, real!Eduardo and real!Mark are not quite the same as Andrew Garfield heart-eyes-ing at Jesse Eisenberg.

[acornmama.livejournal.com]

First I missed your birthday! I am so sorry Happy Belated. Hope you had a wonderful time and ate until you were stuffed.

Secondly, I have noticed your absolute love for Mi and his sweet self. And how that translates with the snarkier side of Q. I can't speak on the other fandoms because I know nothing of them (I am so very one track sometimes). Still, what I love most about QMi is the obvious love between them. Romance/ Bromance whatever. They make me happy just watching them!

And I often go back through your suju fic directory. It is one of the few places still around that has readable QMi still available. You and Coley Merrin. I would love to read your new stuff.

I was so excited to see the Suju boys back and just about in full force that I have barely even paid attention to the song though it has a vague Swing vibe to it that makes me laugh. Siwon looks wonderful and Leeteuk actually looks a little more grown up and, and , and....
And yes, Big Bang should come out with a new album ! GD said they would try so that means what? November? Maybe? Hmmmm what happened to the idea of the Zhou Mi/GD story? That would still be an awesome idea!

[meiface.livejournal.com]

Ah, thank you so much! It was a quiet, lazy birthday but I did have good food and that is always important!

Oh man, I was rereading some of my Suju fic last week and amazing myself at how much I'd written and didn't remember writing, haha. I have so many qmi feelings and desire to write about them, but the actual process of writing is harder. :( Sometimes I might surprise myself though!

Haha of all the many, many friends Zhou Mi and GD each have, it really seems like there's very little overlap. Maybe if I ever wrestle GD/Zhou Mi convincingly in my head, I can make it a reality! Maybe it would be a fun challenge to bring together two people who otherwise have no real contact, it seems.

[acornmama.livejournal.com]

If GD and Henry can be written into blind dates then I figure Mi and GD can find common ground out there somewhere and one day when they find it I suppose you will figure out how to write it.
I always admire writers. It is so bold to put what you already have written out there and I understand how hard it is just to sit some times and write and make them go from one place to the next with any sort of smoothness and clarity.