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dying days
I'm in St. Louis with Kevin's family because his dad is dying; well, he's been dying -- in hospice care -- since July, but now the nurse thinks he has a week, at most. The downturn was sudden and swift. It's a terrible thing to wait around watching someone you love die slowly, and equally terrible to watch them die rapidly, knowing the end is imminent: so near, and yet so uncertain. It's impossible to plan. It's just hard.
When we say "until my dying days", it's odd to think that this is what we mean, that there are days when you are dying (a little more actively than the norm), your dying days.
We are lucky that my FIL has experienced relatively no pain; very, very blessed. He is weak, exhausted physically and emotionally, but he is present enough to know us and be glad we are here with him. That matters.
It has been rough on Kevin, and on me. Two back to back weeks of major work events: Tiger Ball kickoff, an offsite meeting to launch a steering committee for a new annual LNY performance, Huffington Award Luncheon, Night Market last night. I am tired and burned out at work; I am trying to be here for Kevin; I flew out to St. Louis today and back home Monday evening, and am working Election Night at rally sites (receiving votes from poll sites), and there is...more work. Always work.
I had planned to go to the Texas Book Festival next weekend with a friend; we'll see if it happens.
When we say "until my dying days", it's odd to think that this is what we mean, that there are days when you are dying (a little more actively than the norm), your dying days.
We are lucky that my FIL has experienced relatively no pain; very, very blessed. He is weak, exhausted physically and emotionally, but he is present enough to know us and be glad we are here with him. That matters.
It has been rough on Kevin, and on me. Two back to back weeks of major work events: Tiger Ball kickoff, an offsite meeting to launch a steering committee for a new annual LNY performance, Huffington Award Luncheon, Night Market last night. I am tired and burned out at work; I am trying to be here for Kevin; I flew out to St. Louis today and back home Monday evening, and am working Election Night at rally sites (receiving votes from poll sites), and there is...more work. Always work.
I had planned to go to the Texas Book Festival next weekend with a friend; we'll see if it happens.
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