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this is why i shouldn't share my feelings
seriously. don't read this if you're not a mi-stan, if you're easily offended by personal opinions on kpop idols (it's okay, i am, hence the warning), if you don't get overinvestment in fandom, or if you just don't care.
oh jesus fucking christ i am tired of watching zhou mi make eyes at kyuhyun like he hangs the stars in the sky and kyuhyun occasionally tolerate him, occasionally shrug him off, occasionally smile back and respond like, hey, maybe he actually likes zhou mi as a person. it's like a game of russian roulette with my feelings! i wish i didn't ship them, tbh. no, okay, mostly what i wish is that 1) mimi were not so stuck on him oh my god stop being so obvious it is painful to watch or that 2) kyuhyun would not be so hot and cold I WOULD LIKE TO PUNCH YOU IN THE FACE.
a lot of this ends up, as always, circling around my own neuroses and hang-ups, particularly with friendships and unequal amounts of care and being taken for granted. maybe irl they are just fine and dandy because obviously we can't ever know the whole picture as outsiders, but, just sayin, as an outsider, it really really looks like KYUHYUN IS A SPOILED BRAT WHO CHOOSES TO INDULGE ZHOU MI'S AFFECTIONS WHEN IT SUITS HIM. stop taking people who care for you for granted, asshole.
that said, hey, kyu has guns. mi, as always, is magnetically drawn to him. the lack of personal space is telling. yes, we are comfortable with each other. yes, we are actually close. so, in the end, it is just cho kyuhyun's hang-ups about fans and public images and fanservice and bullshit that makes him tense up and push away.
which is probably normal. which is probably fair. maybe mi is okay with it. maybe mi should stop touching him in public if he is clearly so uncomfortable with it. maybe i am being irrationally biased and pissy and unfair.
but as a mi-stan, i'm not going to be fair. i'm going to call kyuhyun an asshole. asshole.
ngl, i'm sick of kyustans due solely with my annoyance with kyu himself. he is not the end-all be-all. he is actually kind of a jerk sometimes.
in happier news, everything about henry makes me happy. donghae is unbelievably, disgustingly hot and i forgot how much i want him in my pants. oh my god that video HE IS IN ALL BLACK THOSE PANTS THAT SHIRT COLLAR HIS DARK HAIR.
my favorites go thusly: zhou mi, henry, donghae, ryeowook, heechul, kyuhyun.
that's definitely not the order of pants i want in, but, hey, you don't have to like someone to want to fuck them. (and donghae would make a terrible bf anyway.)
this is why i don't like the person i am in kpop fandom. overinvestment, much?
(public, hey, because i'm not ashamed of my ridiculous personal opinions, but comments screened because you should feel free to say what you want too.)
oh jesus fucking christ i am tired of watching zhou mi make eyes at kyuhyun like he hangs the stars in the sky and kyuhyun occasionally tolerate him, occasionally shrug him off, occasionally smile back and respond like, hey, maybe he actually likes zhou mi as a person. it's like a game of russian roulette with my feelings! i wish i didn't ship them, tbh. no, okay, mostly what i wish is that 1) mimi were not so stuck on him oh my god stop being so obvious it is painful to watch or that 2) kyuhyun would not be so hot and cold I WOULD LIKE TO PUNCH YOU IN THE FACE.
a lot of this ends up, as always, circling around my own neuroses and hang-ups, particularly with friendships and unequal amounts of care and being taken for granted. maybe irl they are just fine and dandy because obviously we can't ever know the whole picture as outsiders, but, just sayin, as an outsider, it really really looks like KYUHYUN IS A SPOILED BRAT WHO CHOOSES TO INDULGE ZHOU MI'S AFFECTIONS WHEN IT SUITS HIM. stop taking people who care for you for granted, asshole.
that said, hey, kyu has guns. mi, as always, is magnetically drawn to him. the lack of personal space is telling. yes, we are comfortable with each other. yes, we are actually close. so, in the end, it is just cho kyuhyun's hang-ups about fans and public images and fanservice and bullshit that makes him tense up and push away.
which is probably normal. which is probably fair. maybe mi is okay with it. maybe mi should stop touching him in public if he is clearly so uncomfortable with it. maybe i am being irrationally biased and pissy and unfair.
but as a mi-stan, i'm not going to be fair. i'm going to call kyuhyun an asshole. asshole.
ngl, i'm sick of kyustans due solely with my annoyance with kyu himself. he is not the end-all be-all. he is actually kind of a jerk sometimes.
in happier news, everything about henry makes me happy. donghae is unbelievably, disgustingly hot and i forgot how much i want him in my pants. oh my god that video HE IS IN ALL BLACK THOSE PANTS THAT SHIRT COLLAR HIS DARK HAIR.
my favorites go thusly: zhou mi, henry, donghae, ryeowook, heechul, kyuhyun.
that's definitely not the order of pants i want in, but, hey, you don't have to like someone to want to fuck them. (and donghae would make a terrible bf anyway.)
this is why i don't like the person i am in kpop fandom. overinvestment, much?
(public, hey, because i'm not ashamed of my ridiculous personal opinions, but comments screened because you should feel free to say what you want too.)