寻觅你最明媚的四月天

I AM FULL OF ONE PIECE FEELINGS. In the middle of the Impel Down arc right now on my reread, dreading Marineford, but the arc is so good. I am incoherent with my all-consuming feelings and I want the next few volumes from my library, and I want to be up to date, and I want this series to actually end, and gloriously, so I can feast on all of it. Works in progress are the bane of my existence, but we have another ten years to go. Dammit, Oda. This better be the greatest ending of all time.

I want fic, but top stuff on AO3 is all OOC m/m slash set in boring AUs (HOW COULD YOU NOT LOVE THE ONE PIECE WORLD AS IS??) and top stuff on FF.net is all Luffy/OFC self-insert wish fulfillment (where the OFC is the self-insert if the author's female and Luffy becomes the self-insert if the author's a guy...). WHERE IS MY GOOD GENFIC? OR EVEN GOOD SHIPFIC SET IN CANON UNIVERSE? It is so hard to find LJ fic. LJ, why did you die? :(

Upon this reread, being older, I really find that I adore Luffy. You can't commit to this series and its ridiculous premise and world if you don't embrace him and his blind optimism and simple faith and love for adventure 100%, just like his crew. Beyond that I really, really love Nami and Robin and wish they got to do more. I know in a world where being superpowered by strength really wins the day they aren't as valued, even for their brains, but god do I love them so much for having passions that aren't just to win every battle. And yet, in the end, they are driven by friendship and loyalty just like every other Straw Hat. But they can help and protect their friends in different ways. Their vulnerabilities speak more to me, too, than, for instance, any of the guys'. A guy afraid of being weak and unable to protect those he cares about is different from a girl, even in this world (of crazybad girl pirates too, yay), afraid of being weak and unable to protect those she loves. They have different choices and opportunities. Neither Nami nor Robin will ever be Pirate King, for example. And that sucks. But then, that's not what either of them want, anyway.

Love Zoro even more this time around, the stupid loyal lunkhead, and Franky a lot more than before, and am less swayed by Sanji. Chopper remains adorable and I still have trouble committing to Usopp (I appreciate all he is! it's just not my character type!) and Brooke (his backstory is touching, but mostly for Laboon; I felt no particular emotion attached to Brooke).

I am bursting with feelings about all the other pirates, warlords and rookies alike, background characters, Garp, the whole mystery of the blank 100 years, THERE IS SO MUCH. I GET YOU, ROBIN. I NEED TO KNOW. But I'm OK to go along for the ride for now.

Jesus, I'm going to be like 40 when this series ends.


Edit: THIS IS NOT A DRILL. KOMATTA TOKI NI WA HOSHI NI KIKE HAS FINALLY BEEN FULLY SCANLATED HOLY SHIIIIT it's only been ten goddamn years. Now I have something else to reread in between my One Piece feelings.

SJM COMEBACK I DIDN'T EVEN KNOW THEY WERE A THING I DIDN'T EVEN THINK THEY WERE STILL GOING TO CONTINUE AS A SUBGROUP AND KEEP PROMOTING AFTER ALL THOSE SOLO ACTIVITIES WHAT

BRB TRANSCENDENT WITH FEELINGS

Look at how cute they are! Ridiculous salaryman antics! I expect 5 gazillion new office AUs!

I hope with every fiber of my being for a cute, catchy song and an adorable MV and variety shows jesus please, and maybe if the universe really loves me, a qmi duet IT IS ALL I HAVE EVER DREAMED OF AHHH

♥♥♥!

Welcome to my belated feelings about Jesse Eisenberg, 2 years after the rest of the world has moved on. In my defense, 2 years ago I was recovering from Inception fandom and galivanting about Southeast Asia in a bliss of food and hot weather. I was distracted! Also, SJM.

But oh my god, Jesse Eisenberg. There is just something about his way with words, his dry humor, his thoughtful responses to asinine questions by reporters, and something perhaps to the impression of "intense vulnerability" he gives off, as Andrew Garfield put it. It's not that I want to mother him and pat his face, nor that I want to sex him up, but more along the lines of actually maybe - unutterably pretentious as it sounds - having fallen a bit in love with his soul, or at least the parts bared enough for the world to see. (I am not so delusional yet - or anymore? - to think that we could ever really know the full personality of a celebrity through their interviews alone, confessional as they may seem. Too many years of RPF have left their marks on me.)

HE FOSTERS CATS!! (I want a cat.)

Aaand I just got distracted for 15 minutes typing up this post by scouring YouTube clips of him. Yep. Who wants to see Now You See Me? I DO. What is that cast even. It looks like an unnecessarily explosive high-speed chase type of heist movie with lots of people in suits! I am down with this.

Aside from all those feelings, I've been up and down with hockey and my Canes and Flyers. Speaking of the latter, Philadelphia has been amazing in my two trips there for food, friends, and hockey, and I hope that trend continues! I found the most excellent Chinese restaurant there, serving food so spicy it will set your tongue on fire and bring tears to your eyes, but at least half of those tears are from blissful joy & dancing taste buds. Their Chinatown also provided me delicious egg tarts (蛋塔！！！) and milk tea, and hair stylists who actually know what they're doing with Asian hair that don't cost upwards of $200. Speaking of which, I chopped off about 6 inches of hair yesterday! My hair hasn't been this short since, well, probably 2 years ago back in early 2011. I am just revisiting the past these days, apparently.

I love Claude Giroux being a troll, I love Patrick Kane's filthy goals, I love that Mihae are hanging out so much more now and seem so much closer, and I love the Changtoria reflection-in-a-spoon scandal. Please. Victoria Song is flawless and could date ALL Y'ALL IDOLS. Nichkhun, Changmin, Kyuhyun, whomever. Amber, Luna, Krystal, Sulli. Okay, maybe not Zhou Mi. Aside from him though, I basically ship Victoria/anyone.

Work is going through a hellacious period, and yes I am using bad '90s slang, but I survive with having weekend plans with friends who keep me sane and happy.

What else? I once had so many serious analytic & critical thoughts about various news stories, but the time has passed and I have run out of thoughts and am surviving only on feelings. Give me some time to recollect my wits and thoughts.

Can you believe it's March already?! Just two and a half months until Star Trek Into Darkness!

Despite waking up in a horrendous mood on Sunday, this week has actually been excellent so far. It's hard to be down when my emotions are being buoyed in every direction, from actual hockey news (!!) to SJM everything, and Daily Show & Colbert Report are back, and Running Man continues to be hilarious.

Seriously, I AM SO EXCITED FOR A HOCKEY SEASON, even an abbreviated one - maybe even more so because it means the dynamics change and different things end up mattering. I basically spend all my down time at work reading hockey articles and being giddy there actually is enough news for constant new hockey articles. :D And my boys are coming back from overseas and we're getting pics and interviews akldjgs. Even for my hated teams, I am glad to see news because it means HOCKEY SOON. Please please please let the season open with a Pens-Flyers game; I would die of happiness. Except first I must dig a ditch outside of Sidney Crosby's home and hope he falls into it. :D

The Blues are not yet my Western conference team but I want to launch myself at David Backes every time I see him. I hope they do well, but let's be honest, I am askdjlsf to see Tazer and Kaner on ice again together. Chicago's goal-tending though... Philly's defense though... UGH CANES PLEASE JUST WIN EVERYTHING EVER.

And then after work my life is filled with the joy of SJM INTERVIEWS. There is no other group I'd sit through endlessly awkward/boring interviews for simply because they make it not awkward/boring through nothing more than interacting with each other or randomly giggling or clutching at Zhou Mi's arm in an attempt to make him better understand your fail Chinese...

I SHIP EVERYONE/ZHOU MI. JUST. LOVE HIM AND MAKE HIM GIGGLE AND MAKE HIM HAPPY. :DDDD



YOU GUYS ARE SO WEIRD ILU.

Tangentially, I also ship a lot of people/Victoria. Nickhun? YES. Changmin? YES. Minho? IDK SURE WHY NOT. The tall leggy gentlemanly but also prone to giggling type, basically.

Other things making me happy:
- SHERLOCK IS SO SAD JOAN IS LEAVING HIM AWWWW
- Yonghwa on the latest ep of Running Man omg
- all the Trek everywhereee but special love for this
- I just made and ate a ton of fresh guacamole yessssss.
- I love "It's You" on the SJM album so much and kitschful said it reminded her of a One Direction song and then and facepalmed BECAUSE THAT IS PROBABLY WHY I LIKE IT SO MUCH

Have a superbly sparkly week, you guys. ♥♥♥ And come flail with me about anything! Everything!

Hey celerywench, I hear it's your birthday -

( Here is a love note! )

So now have some things that I hope will make you happy:

( In vague chronological order. Very vague. )