寻觅你最明媚的四月天

An episode in the tragedy of my life: I was happily washing my coffee pot (because I'm weird and like doing the dishes) and then it just...broke. In my hands. While I was rinsing it out. Apparently the glass just got tired of retaining its coffee pot shape and gave up on life. Who knew that happened?! Coffee pots shouldn't be allowed to have existential crises, goddammit.

So, yes, I know what I will be asking my parents for for my birthday. If I survive until then. D:

Work provides coffee for weekdays but, oh god, the weekends. Maybe I'll go hipster and explore some non-Starbucks coffee shops and go live out a coffee shop AU or something. "Hello, barista, thanks for the latte, would you like to become half an OTP with me and have hilarious miscommunications, hot sex, and eventual happy ending?" Or should I just linger until a hot regular who is secretly a successful novelist falls in love with me or I accidentally spill my drink on a incognito movie star?

Maybe fic has skewed my expectations of reality...

Apropos of nothing, I cooked! Asian style pork chops, sauteed yellow squash and zucchini, with jambalaya rice (granted, the rice was out of a box, but it was rice! I haven't had rice in so long I was becoming less Asian, I swear). And then strawberries for dessert. I really want to make some peach crisp but maybe I'll just wait until fall hits and make apple crisp. Mmm, food is the best.

So! I've been reading a lot, as always, so here are lots of recs for various fandoms:

★ DCU, Disney, Harry Potter, Hikaru no Go, One Piece, Star Trek XI, and assorted Yuletide fandoms (19 fics total)

Here are some recent incidents from my life:

( Cut because brevity may be the soul of wit, but I am not witty. :( I just use lots of capslock to express my feelings. )

Not too much else has been going on with my life. Some work, yes, but that's not terribly exciting. The holidays! They were pretty low-key, honestly, with lots of food and so far no excessive family drama (keeping my fingers crossed on that one!). Mostly I am looking forward to enjoying my coffee or tea (chai lattes! LONDON FOGS! ♥ or, of course, the ever classic Chinese green tea) and lots of reading while I can.

Maybe I'll try writing again, too. I want to try writing in new fandoms! How do people start writing in new fandoms? It's so hard to get over my fear of characterization or the fear that everyone else is doing it better/has done it better, ahhh. Clearly the solution is just to get tipsy first. Then you won't care. (That's how it worked for me in Inception!)

So I was reading, which happens, and stumbled across some discussion about RPF that made me pause and think.

There have been dozens upon dozens of threads in fandom over the years about how some people can't do RPF at all and some people can do it but only certain ways and other people are like, "Hit me, baby, I can take anything." It's all cool, because it's all a matter of individual taste and so on, but something that's made me curious is the huge difference I've seen in approaches to RPF in Western RPF fandoms vs. Kpop/Jpop RPF fandoms.

For instance, a lot of people in Western RPF fandoms want the family members to be left alone/left out or at least not demonized ("written out of character") in RPF. A lot of people can't read or write about certain people once they've started dating or gotten engaged or married. A lot of people don't mind RPF if it's more gen or friendship or PG romance, but can't do the filthy smut bits, because that feels more violating. Some people can do RPF up until the point they meet the person in question IRL, and then it's no go.

All of these are totally legitimate ways to feel; different strokes for different folks, YMMV, etc. It just made me blanch and realize--

( I don't think I've seen anyone in kpop/jpop RPF fandoms even come close to having these issues. )

Life updates! I am at the beach (Emerald Isle, NC) with family and best friend, so there will be drastically less internet time and much more gallivanting about on the sand and water to the point where I've inhaled so much salt I'm probably pickling. Pictures forthcoming at some point; we've rented out a house and it is right on the beach and it is gloriously sunny and beachy (all shades of yellow, orange, pink, and teal) and the water is warm and I am delighting in a change of scenery from the flat-flat-oh-also-flat Midwest.

Things!

- I have managed to lose my left contact lens! I either lost it in my head (unlikely, because my eye is not protesting by turning vividly red and painful) or somehow failed to actually put it in my eye when I sleepily attempted to put in contacts this morning. So that's sad. I'm in glasses for the rest of the trip, it seems, and until I get back to STL. :( BUT IT'S OKAY, MY GLASSES MAKE ME LOOK GEEK-CHIC, OR SOMETHING HIPSTER. WHATEVER. A hipster with a headache; man, I am not used to wearing my glasses for prolonged periods of time anymore...

- I went into paroxysms of joy this morning upon the discovery of JIF Peanut Butter With Honey. The honey is in the peanut butter, you guys. OH MY GOD I AM SO HAPPY, IT IS SO DELICIOUS. I have plans to clutch the jar possessively to my chest and eat from it with a spoon. Who cares if anyone else wants any!

- Inception fandom continues to dominate my life and plans have been made to see it for a fifth time with efio_47, who has not yet seen it once! She's asked if I've seen it so often I can quote the entire thing or reenact it for her amusement. Sadly, the answer is yes, but only for the Arthur/Eames bits. And, well, basically every single Saito line. :D Surely you see why.

- On this note, my delicious continues to explode from the amazing Inception fics and kinkmeme fills. Still, there are so many good prompts - I kind of want them ALL to be filled. I have managed to fill 2 on my own! I didn't know I could still write! This is what this fandom does to me, okay? (Ruins me, obviously.)

- I am now at peace with my very large and very platonic crush on Adam Lambert. God, he is just so shiny. Sometimes quite literally!

- My life is composed of beachy activities - swimming, waking up to watch the sunrise over the ocean, nearly drowning in salt-water, getting sand everywhere, poring over a puzzles!, reading - and also stereotypical activities that occur when large numbers of Chinese(-American) families get together: massive amounts of eating, mahjong, talking about college, watching the boys play Wii, cards, and I know someone brought a karaoke machine, oh dear god. You know what? I don't so much mind my life being stereotypes like this. :)

- ( AND ONE LAST THING, NSFW )

ETA: INCEPTION FIC, PRINCESS BRIDE STYLE. Arthur/Eames, lots of team antics, PG. THIS IS ACTUALLY, ACTUALLY, THE MOST AMAZING THING IN THE WORLD. If you don't read it, I will cry. It is just that fucking amazing.

It is March 14th! I've gone at least four years in a row without missing a post on this day because it's a pretty important day:

There is much to celebrate! Happy White Day, Pi Day, and w-inds.' 9th anniversary (nine years, wow - wow - and everyone is right, I really like their new album), and 6 years to my nightengale. ♥♥♥ There are not enough words or heartmarks in the world for me to eloquently express my love today, in the state I'm in, so let us just have pie.

Otherwise today is noteworthy solely for my caving and joining ELFISH (I have no idea what on earth prevented me from joining before) and discovering things like this:



(Sheena, there's a fierce!Wook for you in the background of the last picture - I know you're not looking at anything else. I know you.)

My spring break ends today and it's back to a (long, long) day of classes and work tomorrow, but my descent into a spiral of darkness and woe and gratuitous whining is helped greatly by a few things:

(1) Donghae singing and dancing to I'm Yours
(2) Kyuhyun singing 原谅我 at the Shanghai Encore
(3) ( And this. )

I should probably eat something today, yeah? Off foraging for coffee and food.